christ centered pursuit.

what does it mean to live a christ centered life. i feel that essentially, it means to live a genuine christian life. If we as christians are genuine and honest with our faith, there needs to be some change, some fruit evident in our lives. i mean, how can we fully acknowledge God and Christ, and not want to do everything to please him and worship him. even this week, i have been very convicted to truly pursue a christ driven life. in my devo for this week, i shared about philippians 2, which basically talked about the true and ultimate humility Jesus Christ demonstrated for us. When we look at this, and how he was so obedient to the end, i wonder, how can we as humans even think about limiting ourselves in our pursuit of God.

i see this as a struggle in my own life. i can honestly say that pride is a constant struggle. i feel that is a hole in my heart, that wont allow my heart to be fully filled with genuine worship. i look for self recognition. self praise. and it becomes about me. but as I truly acknowledge Jesus' sacrifice for me, i see how selfish i am, and how ugly i am. i serve myself bc its easy and comfortable. i serve others bc i enjoy the recognition and their approval. but is it really about that? is it really about me? no. it isnt.

what are we here for? we are essentially here to work for our savior. and he asks us to follow his path, to pick up our own cross and follow. however, it often get heavy, and i put it down to rest and please myself. i justify my pride with thoughts such as "its ok, i did something for christ today." this shuldnt be the case. when Jesus calls us to serve, he wants and deserves our all. i intend to do so as much as my fleshly body allows me too.

i talked to some people today about how KCM and our freshmen class is turning out to be. i love our freshmen class, and i have definitely grown immensely here. but as a group, i see that we have grown so exclusive and clickee. it becomes about us, and our fellowship and our growth. however as a ministry, that shouldnt be our purpose. how can we call our ministry christ centered when we dont reach out to those who dont know christ. i see that we tend to depend on each other, making it hard for those who are new to come in. how is this christ like in anyway? there needs to be some change in our freshmen class. however it isnt a group problem. it really boils down to the individual. i feel that all the freshmen in the core group have grown so comfortable and complacent with where we are, that we dont see any reason to reach out. i personally see this in my own interactions with other people, as i tend to depend on the other freshmen. in order to be more christ like as a group, we need to all change individually, to pursue christ in our own personal lives.