emcee.

so today was sister appreciation at cpc. i definitely had a great time bonding with the college group and meeting everyone i didnt get to meet before. me and apack were MCs which was a new experience for both of us. I am honestly not a good public speaker. i speak fast, i stutter, and i tend to clamp up under pressure. however, me and apack were selected to MC for the event (well i kinda dragged apack in). iono what came into my mind, but i thought i could ya know just wing it and do whatever. so we didnt prepare until the night before. by the time it started, i was freaking out. it all finally hit me and doode i was nervous like none other. i prayed before, and i think it helped me calm down, that by really putting everything up to God, there was no reason to be nervous. so we did the show. it was really fun. rapped a little. told a poem. told some jokes. lol. definitely an awesome new experience.

i really love cpc. i love dc and how much he effort he puts into really unifying the ministry. happy hour, and a bunch of other stuff, i feel like im really able to call the ministry a community and family. my home church on the other hand is not doing so well. they have a weak college group and em group. there are def ppl trying to get it better, however its just at an awkward moment right now. i feel that that is one of the major reasons why i stayed at cpc. however, i feel God put onnuri into my life for a reason. i feel that in the future, i need to serve there more consistently and with a more genuine heart. for the time being, i feel that cpc is a necessary step in my growth though. so we shall wait and see.

grandparents are here. mom is going on a mission trip soon. winter quarter is ending soon. spring quarter is coming up. tis going to be an interesting month. woot woot. ftl