im in a library.

im studying in a library. i think its working. lol.

humble worship.

God visits me in many forms. recently it has been his grace that has been with me, constantly showing me his love and compassion. Poetry Auction was this week. my head was blown up. i started to give up my devotion time to edit more or film more. to be honest, i kinda lost God inside myself. it became about impressing, gaining attention, basically feeding my stupid blown up pride. as you know, i messed up. it was the first time i have ever sang alone in front of a crowd bigger than.... 10 ppl. i kept repeating the lyrics in my head, and i knew them forsure. Im happy God was with me thru that. being humbled like that was... man.. i have to say it was worth it.

pride is something i on a daily basis struggle with. i honestly call myself a new christian bc its been less than a year since i truthfully stepped into the journey with God. it definitely is hard. no one said it was easy tho. i have prayed for God to humble me, and i guess i can see it now. thank you God. GG - God's Grace.

so i came home this weekend for a conference at my home church. iz called WOW - Winds of Worship. it was... very interesting, and basically the theme was about genuine passionate worship. returning back to my church, i guess since i have actually started to listen to sermons and stuff, i have began to notice different things. my church is very charismatic. my mom as well. now im not here to judge, but im here to point out some differences i felt. basically, it is the "belief that Christians may be “filled with” or “baptized in” the Holy Spirit as a second experience subsequent to salvation and that it will be evidenced by manifestations of the Holy Spirit". well, at this conference, the main speaker was Randy laea. He is a speaker from hawaii and yes, he is of charismatic bg. towards the end, he called whoever wanted to feel the holy spirits presence down to the stage, and he started to pray for physical healing, about prophesies and in tongue. i didnt go up. now i have grown up with this my whole life but only now has it started to bother me. i prayed for guidance and i pulled out a piece of paper and i started to jot down what i was thinking. who is he to call down the holy spirit and speak so prophetically? i was then reminded of Pastor Woogie's message 2 weeks back about passing judgement on others. at one point, he specifically called out the charismatics and said that we needed to love them despite our theological backgrounds.

i realize that it really is about the personal relationship with God. i dont find a need to run up and start jumping up and down to worship God. it just doesnt work for me. i really prefer to stand in the back and quietly worship God, praying and singing. im shuldnt judge because ppl dont share the same worship styles as me. Genuine and passionate praise doesn't require physical jumping and yelling, but genuine spiritual passion. i know i still have my differences with the charismatic movement, but i feel God is calling me to love them no matter.

are we human, or are we poets?

poetry auction. so time consuming. i dont wanna lose the true meaning behind it. fundraising for missions. appreciating the sisters. lol. the sisters better be worth it. lawl.

colored blocks keep falling on my head...

tetris. the latest trend. lol. its so fun. i enjoy not really having to worry about losing or winning. just playing with friends. so fun. haha. just cant get addicted. i see know what andrew meant. i see blocks flying down everywhere. lol wheeee.

so start of a new week. this sunday was a good way to calm myself and my heart down. studious worship everyday and everyweek. i need to run a little more. im getting way to fat. must exercise.

poetry auction stuff this week. soo much work. hope it ends up well tho. FIGHTING!!! AJAH!!! lol.

disney songs and growing up.

dang doode. im discovering so many disney songs that i looked over during my childhood. makes me so happy. kinda like... when i eat all the spam in my ramyun, but later i find another extra piece in there. nom. kinda like that. "go the distance" from hercules was pretty awesome. so is "you'll be in my heart" from tarzan. amazing. lol.

other than that, weekend has started off decent. cpc bible study was amazing. no girls. all guys. studied what the bible had to say about a man's purity and stuff. pretty deep. iono if girls know, but its true that every single guy struggles from sexual impurity. I am not one to judge as i am too a guy. dont want to go into explicit details here, but that study has taught me so much about it. We really cant overcome it through excessive guilt or sheer willpower, but it really is through Jesus. and as brothers, we really do need to keep each other in balance and in check. lol. God is amazing. im definitely looking forward to my partner God has chosen out for me. oh man :D lol.

well its time to sleep. poetry auction stuff has drained me. gotta wake up early for church. gnight. PEACE

GG & a simple prayer.

God's Grace.

dear God, allow me to fear you. allow me to love you. im not leaving until u call me "Israel". amen.

sing, sing, sing and make music with the heavens...

today was semi productive. went to slr by myself. got a solid 2 hours of reading in. kinda proud. but i still need to find a better place to study. going tom to deneve with apack. we shall see how that goes.

imma buy a guitar. i really want to learn. sometimes when my mind wanders and starts thinking sinfully, i just want to start singing praise to get my mind off it. that guitar will help lots. hope i get a good deal on it.

i feel very uninspired today. lol. nothing much to write. i guess ill jst sleep.

i wanna sleep in this. how awesome wuld that be.

falt.

dang. today was certainly soo humbling. sharing my testimony for the first time in public was pretty nerve wraking. im just thankful that God got me through it. i remember repeating the prayer in my head "please give me the right heart". and i think God really did give me that right heart. and being able to share in such an encouraging environment is so great. thanks falt ppls :D

poetry auction preparation should be fun. looks like its going to be very long and tiresome. you sisters better be worth it... lol :P

hmmm. i realize i spend a lot of time in front my computer. and i was bored... so i took a picture. lol. lets take a look :D

that was fun. lol.

let us start a beautiful school week

the transitive property states that if a=b and b=c, then a=c. By this logic... since i am student and a student studies, i must study. let this week be filled with studious worship. lol.

this song is so good. makes me smile everytime.

Dancers Among Us

i believe that we all have that inner dancer inside us. that part of us that just wants to explode out and express itself shamelessly. i want my faith to be like that. i want it to want to express itself, want to scream out and yell out in passion. God has done so much for me, isn't it about time to return it Him? :D

inspired by a photo gallery called "Dancers Among Us" photographed by Jordan Matter
this guy is amazing. basically he takes professional dancers and puts them into everyday situations. here are some of my favorites.

FOR NARNIA!!!

today was pretty dang fun. haha. i know freshmen didnt win it all, but ya know, we gotta let the juniors win one more time :D haha its all good. my body hurts so good. im going to sore tom forsure.

pastor woogie's message have been so amazing recently. especially today, they kinda hit you hard and leave u dazzled. you just end up sitting there and thinking about how true they are and how we as humans are naturally sinners. he talked about how the Pharisees often expressed their nationalistic customs and saw them selves superior to the gentiles. i often find myself in that christian clique, and when christians are offended, i am quick to anger. but in retrospect, i look at my true intentions behind my anger and i find that i usually get offended bc i am associated with christians. how hypocritical am i, to say im christian and yet fail to realize the true glory and absolute wonder of God. i dont want to associated to God by "nationality" but i desire to be with God intimately and personally.

broomballing was fun. definetly enjoyed the bonding. i love our freshmen class. i love the accountability we all share with each other. haha. so many girls started to coming out. iono them all. i shuld get to know them. and no... not in that "lezz go" way. but in a more unifying way.

lol well time to sleep. tom will be another wonderful day. a pursuit to glorify God in everything i do, say and think.


i kinda wish i had a bike on campus. it wuld make traveling to campus so much easier. lol. jst a thought

the wheels light up. how awesome is that. so tron-esque


buying this for my kid :D yup yup :D. hipster kid on the block. lol

chill.

im in the mood to go here. lezz goooo.

real men do yoga.

ahhh. second quarter. its pretty fun so far. classes are decent. since there is no math, im alot less stressed and can spend alot more time on calming down to gather myself. God teaches me so much everyday. man i gotta live that everyday pursuit. haha. well anway... i started yoga. apack, ula and me. i didnt tell anyone i signed up for it, but i hafta admit that danng its so relaxing. Every stretch and every pose was so calming. its awesome. but shhh. i havent told anyone about it. hahaha. but i have learned that real men do yoga. true fact.

kcm has definitely been a huge blessing for me. being able to be kept accountable by sooo many peers encourages me so much to both pursue a stronger relationship with God and develop my relationships with my peers. todays testimonies blew me away. they really were encouraging and I was so blessed by their honesty and humbleness. My turn next week. i gotta start praying now. haha

man its so late.... immma go to bed... and hello to new readers. lol.

im back.

after a month long hiatus, i have returned. it is late so i wont sooper blog post today, but i definetly feel that i have come back to college rejuvenated and ready to live with purpose. winter break humbled me so much and i learned so much, but i feel that i keep drifting away since coming back to college. talked with apack today and he really encouraged me. i do realize that i compare myself to much with other people. other peoples success and spirituality. i want to seek an honest and pure relationship with God. one where i dont seek human approval but only his. so with this, i shall go to bed and start tom off with the word. keep my accountable with that. i need my spiritual meals :D

i also started a photoblog. lol. http://ordinaryimagery.blogspot.com/