my apologies

sorry for not posting a legit post in two weeks. midterms and stuff. bleeh. so thanksgiving weekend has ended and i am sitting here.... waiting to go back to school. i really love my bed at home. it shall be missed lots. lol. this break was very relaxing. saw old friends and hung out. felt nice. met some new cousins. lol. iono. lots have happened these past 2 weeks, but i cant remember/ im too lazy to post it all up. sooorrry.

so i was talking with my cousin and i was complimenting him on how he played guitar while praying (he is the kcm praise leader). cuz u know, that seems hard to have ur fingers move indpendently from ur brain and etc. iono its jst hard. haha well he told me that when he prayed, he jst kinda let go and let it flow from the spirit. he also said that if i had to really think about what i was going to say in a prayer, something was wrong. and i guess i see it as, a genuine prayer really jst comes out and its not so much about the words but more about the faith behind the prayer. to be honest, i have been struggling with prayer recently. i get distracted and start thinking about other things, so what my cousin told me really hit me. i really want to have genuine prayer. yup.

in other news, finals is coming up. im nervous. i promise im going to try my best and study the snot out of all my classes. and then after, i will party hard. that is how it will roll. haha.

okok. its time for me to go, so PEACE! i will post more now. okok. wooot.