a fattening day.

ahhh sunday. sunday is always a day i look forward to. i am really enjoying church. sermon wasnt too great today... i guess it was a nice change. ate chinese/korean fusion food for lunch. twas a good meal. then went to louise/jas room for korean sausage. then went to kcm chapel. met ppl from church. its really encouraging when i see ppl i recognize in kcm. really motivates me to try hard. then ate guppy house after. soo much shaved ice but soo good. sigh... im going to get fat.

fsf this saturday. im pretty frkn stoked. i love these sports days and competing with other ppl i know. they showed a video today and dangg :D i cant wait. hmm... i really want to make the video next year if possible. currently, its not very great... so i really wanna use my passion to serve the ministry. "you gave me the gift, now i gotta give it back to the best of the best, oh heck yea" - the gift by lyricks and manifest

so kcm chapel was mission report night. basically all the summer mission ppl give like a presentation about their experience from missions. 2 ppl gave testimonies and iono if its me being a pessimist, but whenever i listen to these testimonies, i cant help but think that they are very cliche. the classic "i went wanting to bless them, but instead they blessed me". i definitely should not think in such manner. i caught myself in the process and i think that i have grown prideful about my mission experience, which is not something i should boast about. i realize that even though i dont express pride, i mentally am an extremely prideful and arrogant prick. i am no greater than anyone else. i know i am spiritually immature at this stage of my life and i need to grow. it jst can be very hard at times.

prayer request: living a christian life can be so difficult at times. i often find myself struggling, due to academic stress and pure laziness. i want to live with that passion. pursue God with all my heart, bc right now, i need more than ever.