its always kinda awkward the first time.

no i do not mean sex. clean that mind of urs. lol. i was gonna post last night but due to my ridiculous essay, i was unable to. sorry. i mean it was an interesting essay about how religion affects environmental ethics and such... but after a couple hours.... it sucks. lol.

so yesterday, for the first time, i did campus evangelism. well it was dining hall ev (short for evangelism). i always told myself that i shuld go but i never got around to it (partly due to my laziness). well we were gnna have a freshmen lunch but it happened to be where the dining hall ev was going on so we all decided to just join in. i got paired up with a sophomore hyung and we basically found a guy sitting alone. we asked if we could sit with him. he was totally open to it. his name is steve. so we jst began talking about stuff. i found out he was a 3rd year transfer from irvine. that did help us connect somewhat so we jst ended up talking about it. like who we knew and how clean irvine was blah blah. my partner tried to bring up church a couple times, but steve kinda ignored the subtle hints we were putting out there. he talked alot about his studies and etc which made me really realize how everyone does have that desire to be loved. when he left, he did drop a really subtle hint that he always ate alone and that he was there all the time. It really must be hard to be a 3rd year transfer, coming into an environment where everyone already has their groups and such. even though we didnt get anything about God out there, his hint really encouraged me to really build a relationship with him. i think i will begin to come out more often. It definitely was a good experience that really put me out in the spot with my faith. i guess... pray that i will be able to be an instrument of God and that people really have open minds and hearts.

In my QT a couple days ago, i read the verse, "So, because you are lukewarm - neither hot nor cold - I am about to spit you out of my mouth" Revelation 3:16. this verse really hit me hard and really spoke to me. me the lukewarm... i know of the Gospel but my whole life i wasnt doing anything about it. i had it all in my hands, but my pride and my arrogance kept me from sharing. I realize that God hates these type of people the most. "to spit you out of my mouth" that small phrase really O_O. felt like it was talking to me directly. sooo.... i pray that by doing campus ev, i will be able to grow.

FINALS ARE COMING!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! WHHHAATTT AM I GOINNG TO DOOOOO! STUDDDYYYYY!
sigh.

lol. that is all for now. peace.