mixed feelings.

so started classes. both were discussions so no real classes yet but i do hafta say that i am loving the 50 minute classes. lol. i guess ill hafta wait till hw comes out. the TAs were pretty chill. hope they stay that way through out. haha. my math TA is white. lol. i thought he was going to be asian but looll. real lectures start tom so looking forward to those then its THE WEEKEND! YAH! WOOOOOT! lol. first week of school almost over.

went to the KCCC orientation chapel today. it felt very natural in that it was basically a krn gathering. something ive been to my whole life. very homey and ppl were welcoming, treated me like family. very nice. it was really a huge blessing seeing a bunch of the upperclass men really worshiping God with a genuine heart. everyone is kind of a role model in that sense. It would be awesome to sit down with them and talk with them. about anything. school. prayer requests. LIFE. frkn life bc its "hella" confusing at times.

oh so i decided that once everyone goes back to irvine during the winter, we shuld play a game and whoever says "hella" in a complete sentence loses. lol. i say the indian will lose :P

college. i dont think a week is long enough for me to really place it but its certainly very confusing. i think it really boils down to freedom. jst a huge amount of freedom. and we really reap what we sow. i see it as essentially college is a time for freedom utilization. a place where we can really use that freedom and manipulate it to satisfy our desires. now it can be potentially uber beneficial. taking the right classes. talking to professors. joining the right clubs. growing mentally, physically, mentally etc. but it can be detrimental as well if we choose the wrong path, and im not saying joining clubs like kccc or iv is the right path, but what im trying to say is that we need priorities. the decision between what we need and we dont need. college really boils down to that idea of "what do i need to do to better myself?" iono man. its really been on my mind. haha. blargh. whhee

alcohol. why. i see nothing in it. absolutely no benefit to my life. and i know i have a very narrow scope of what alcohol is but no matter how hard i think, i find to reasoning. no purpose. when we look at humans at its lowest form, we do what benefits us. we eat to create energy. we build to make everyday easier. and plug in alcohol. we drink alcohol to.... drown out life and lose all senses... useless. but then again, this is coming from a drinking noob. im going to have to go to a party and think think this one through. lol.

worked out next to the big black doode today. my measly 25lbs dumbell dont look so tough compared to his 90lbs dumbells. but i stopped caring. i jst think, "i bet i can jump higher than him" then i smile and go on lifting my beast weights. woot.